Live. Laugh. Love. Pray. Repeat.

So today pretty much confirmed the fact that I would someday love to be a part of the Estebo family. While at the KHS Graduation, Garrett’s mom and sister did something I could only dream of doing. We were saving 15 seats for relatives who were coming to the graduation. We got there about an hour before the ceremony. One uptight, arrogant, and entitled parent proceeded to raise an uproar about not being able to save seats. She grabbed 2 event security staff members and 1 officer who tried to get Garrett’s mom to not save seats. His mom told them that if she was going to open up these seats and no longer save them, that every single person in the arena would have to do that as well. Long story short, we got all 15 seats and the witchy woman who was watching from the ledge (whose sane family was probably saving HER a seat as she tried to fight to get her family closer OR she had to sit in a crappy seat because she insisted on waiting until the ceremony was about 15 min away from starting to see if we were forced to “un-save” our seats) had to sit elsewhere. I felt like a boss just being associated with this family. I can’t wait to officially be a part of this strong and courageous family!!!

How about we just press fast forward on life?! I would be okay with breezing through college! I just want to get married and have lots of kids. Maybe if I just blink, time will fast forward itself….

This week has probably been one of the most stressful, difficult, and strange weeks of my life. There were moments this week that the stress and nervousness just made me break down into tears. Not necessarily a panic attack, just more of feeling so overwhelmed. Yesterday kind of put the icing on the cake. I had a really serious talk with a family member and I just started crying and I couldn’t stop. It makes me sad to think that going to college is going to make this situation just as stressful and will probably lead to many more tears along the way. I learned a lot about trust last night. It definitely goes both ways. And I have determined that I have trust/attachment issues with friends. Thanks psychology class for all of the answers to my personal problems. I also learned that I need to expand my support system. I want to spread my wings and know that there are people that would be there for me in case my world ever comes crashing down. Yesterday was stressful, but I learned a lot about myself and the person that I want to be as I start a new chapter in my life. So I guess this rant wasn’t entirely serious! Now it’s time to go be the person that I need to be. :)